7 Aug 2019

A nice quiet life

To say that over the past year, there has been a lot of changes in my life would be an understatement. In fact, when I think about how my life was in the past it almost alien. That's not to say that I didn't enjoy my life before, it's just that it's so completely different, I can't get my head around it. I have a social life and a job that I'm happy with. I can't believe the situation I find myself in. My job is part time so I have time to be social with people. I do my job. I have no politics or dramas going on around me. My only responsibility I have is to do what is is asked of me.

When I think of managing a coffee shop now, I chuckle to myself. The amount of stress and pressure that was exerted on me for such a shitty wage is baffling. To put it into perspective, the job I'm in now is paying me, as a trainee, what I was getting as store manager. After my probation is up, I'll be on 27p more than I was on as a store manager but instead, I'm a simple "retail assistant" who doesn't have to worry about things that might go wrong such as people calling in sick, area manager visits, random audits from the company and environmental health, the shop flooding if it rains too much, the burglar alarm going off when we're closed. Instead, I go home, eat my dinner and watch TV, read or listen to music. More often than not, I also get a lie in the next day.

It's weird when I see someone who I've not seen for a while and they're out of the loop. When they were last in contact with me, I left the coffee shop to go to a supermarket to work nights. They don't know about me quitting the supermarket because it was so shit. It's nice to see old customers. It's funny though, I have had maybe half a dozen of them come up to speak to me when they see me out. They will always mention how the coffee shop isn't the same anymore and that it's lost it's soul. I'd be lying if I said that my heart and soul went into that job, my heart certainly wasn't in it, a large chunk of my soul was though.

It sounds stupid but I feel as though I'm getting closer to something big in my life. I feel as though I've unlocked a secret that I didn't realize before. As long as I earn enough money to live, anything extra is a bonus. After all, that's what life is. I wanted more time to myself, I got that. It's true I'm earning 60% of what I used to, but I'm working 45% of the time with none of the stress and I get to keep my soul. I'm able to afford my bills so I've not got much to complain about.

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